I have been dedicated to my healing journey for years, striving to enhance my intuitive abilities and seeking ways to serve others. It has become clear that sharing my story and revealing my true self is essential. While I have yet to encapsulate my experiences into a neat package fully, there are aspects of my journey that I feel compelled to share. I hope that by opening up, I can offer a deeper understanding of who I am and why my voice matters.
Personal Recovery Story: *****TRIGGER WARNING**** Trauma
story.
Hello, I'm Katie, a country girl with a profound connection to the spirit
world, hailing from the picturesque state of Vermont. Growing up in a small
town where our high school shared a single hallway for grades 7-12, I always
felt a unique bond with my surroundings. From a young age, I was acutely
sensitive to the presence of spirits, a gift that both fascinated and
frightened me. I vividly recall pleading for respite from these overwhelming
energies, a plea born out of a desire to escape the intensity of my
perceptions.
As I navigated through my teenage years and into adulthood, I
grappled with these heightened sensitivities, seeking solace in numbing
distractions such as drugs or relationships. It dawned on me that individuals
battling addiction may be attempting to silence their own unhealed traumas, a
realization that resonated deeply with my struggles with addiction.
Reflecting on my childhood, I recently underwent a profound
revelation after completing a college course on childhood trauma and adverse
experiences. Scoring a 9 out of 10 on the ACE scale, I came face to face with
the lasting impact of my past. This test, designed to yield lower scores, shed
light on the challenges I had endured and the resilience I had cultivated in response.
As shown in class, people with scores of 4 or higher can see a decrease in life
expectancy by 20 years. It made perfect sense to me why my relatives died in
their late 60’s early 70’s. It became clear to me I was to fix this for the
generations to come.
I experienced sexual abuse at the
hands of a couple of people growing up. I never spoke of it again until I was
in my thirties. By then it was ruining my life. At that time, I was in my
full-blown addiction to painkillers trying so hard to be a functional parent. I
was working full-time in our local hospital, raising three children under five,
in an extremely toxic marriage. My husband had been through two open-heart
surgeries within a year. I was taking care of him during his recovery allowing
myself to be buried farther down into the depths of my shadow where I would try
to ignore and numb. The whole situation was out of control in every sense. I
was literally dying inside trying to keep my life together when it really
needed to fall apart for me to rise from the ashes. Eventually, I did rise from
the ashes, but it took a suicide attempt, a couple of hospital stays, a visit
to rehab, tons of prayer, and continuously learning to listen to my intuition. Looking
back now, I see how much help I had from the Divine. Hitting rock bottom was so
necessary for me to fully understand and feel what power addiction can have on
you. I never thought I would say this, but today, I am grateful for this
experience.
I can't say I am completely
healed, but I will say this, I am on the other side of it all, I am listening to
my intuition, which has been nagging me to share my story and what I have found
helpful along the way.
I started counseling for the first
time at age 6 and continue to find it useful to this day. I love having
someone, separate from family, to talk to about issues as they arise. However,
the one thing I can absolutely without a doubt say has been a complete game
changer in my life with the most positive impact on my healing journey, would
be energy healing. I have even learned energetic tools to increase my intuition
and learn to trust it again. I deeply believe energy healing is hands down the
one technique that will positively change the world for anyone who practices
it. When I say energy healing, I mean working with the energy (everything is
energy) around and inside us to heal/clear, envision, and then live a life of
Divinely guided purpose in full alignment with our soul mission.
It is also a deep belief of mine
that we are all here for a Divine reason. The entire time I went through my
life challenges I had a deep knowing (without knowing where it came from) that
I was going through this shit for a reason even if I couldn’t see it at
the time. I now know I had to go through the traumatic experiences to better
understand them, learn from them, heal from them, and then share what I learned
with people going through it on their own. Together we get through it and are
better people because of our experiences. And how blessed are we to live in
such a time when we can go back, look at our experiences, see them for the
lessons they were, and help our fellow traveler on their way through?
We all have intuition and
spiritual guidance available to us at all times. Everything that has happened
to us in life, is for a reason. We are meant to live out our wildest dreams and
by doing so we make this world a better place. I think we all have a deep
feeling/knowing/vision of something we are not doing but are supposed to be
doing, and I want to help pull that out of all of us.
My early connection to spirit
helped me through my childhood challenges. It was me reaching out to regain
that connection that saved my life. And it is now my passion to share the ways
I have learned to bring magic into our mundane to live more aligned to our soul.
I believe by doing so, we are changing the world to help make it a better
place! We are lightworkers! We are here for a reason! It is time to wake up to
our powerful brilliance, and I can't wait to help you shine yours brighter than
ever before!
Join me while we build a community
for the misfits, the sensitive souls, the ones struggling in a world that seems
so unfair. Let's turn struggle into striving. What if it was just perfect and
everything happening to you is for a higher purpose? Let's discover together
what that purpose is. And let's have fun doing it!
Thank you for staying till the end!
I can’t wait to see what a difference we make together!
Blessings,
Katie
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