Traveling through transformation/Spiritual Guidance

The Beauty and the Beast...A deeper story about ALCHEMY!

 I saw a play this week and this happened!

My realization about Beaty and the Beast:

This story isn’t just about a love story of two separate people. They represent the two halves of our wholeness, the light side and the dark side, the parts we love and those we want to hide. It is a story that shows the natural alchemy or alchemical process (turning lead into gold really is turning pain into bliss, or turning density into light dark to light) It is the process that occurs when you learn to love the parts of you that are considered “bad” (God/Creator/Source/Great Spirit/Universal Consciousness(your name for it goes here)... doesn’t make anything bad) beast like, ugly, unlovable, shunned, as they are what (false beliefs) keep us locked in a prison of the mind (and out of your heart, love, connection to the Divine). BUT when you see the parts for the true beauty they actually are, you heal yourself. Your masks fall off, the density turns to light, lead to gold, the dormant DNA lights up! You become full of spirit, spunk, the world becomes you oyster. The parts you shunned as ugly melt into the beautiful masterpiece of art they have truly always been. The curse is lifted. You heart opens to the real magic of life. And the true fairy tale begins! You wake up from the nightmare!

Love really does heal all! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

KT⭐️

Emotional release day

Today I cried. It was a beautiful release. A cleanse. A releasing of built-up emotions. Not just for me but for all our ancestors who were unable to sit and cry. For myself and all the people before me who were forced to stuff their tears away. For those who were justifiably too afraid to allow themselves to feel what they were truly, deeply feeling. For all who have ever shoved their emotions down to keep themselves safe from everyone around them. For that sweet little girl who hurt and was told, “Stop crying” or, “You’re too sensitive”, “too soft” or my favorite, “Stop being a Sally”. I cry and feel the pain and fear I’ve carried for far too long. At the same time, I feel gratitude. I see where it kept me safe. Even if only for a short period. I see how it kept our ancestors from being killed, whipped, beaten, or shackled, but they were still chained. They gave birth to children with wounds in their hearts unbelonging to them. It shaped the way they did things and today because of them we have this beautiful golden opportunity. A choice. A chance to pause. A chance of honor. A chance to feel. A chance to heal.  We have a choice to do things a new way. Our way. We all carry the lessons of our ancestors as tools in our toolbox, to be taken out when their use is warranted. 

Today I feel love for those who came before me even if I don’t know them in person. They live as the love in our hearts, shining the way, guiding us as we build a better tomorrow for the next generation. 

I hear you; I feel you; I honor you all. And, I thank you! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

What emotions are coming up for you to release on this rainy day? I am holding space for you. I am learning there is so much magic and life to live on the other side of the shit we bury!

Sending you, my love! 

What the eclipse taught me.

 

What I learned from the eclipse.

To be honest I am still processing all the changes from this event. So far, this is what I have to share.

The eclipse has shown me how much I was trying to push down my shadow, the parts of me I was ashamed of, and the labels that no longer fit, before I learned all their magic. I was pushing, shoving, and praying for it to be healed before actually doing the work. So I dug in deep.

First, what is the shadow? Some call it the darkness, the “negative,” the parts I/we wish didn’t exist, the parts that made me feel weird, different, and anxious or sad most of the time. Another name is the unconscious, the parts you are so unaware of you don’t know they are ruling your life. As Carl Jung said, “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it fate.”  The parts of me that I don’t relate to or didn’t even belong to me in the first place or did it? The parts of me I was still in denial of, didn’t want to see. Instead, I tried to, “fake it til I made my way out of it.” The parts of me that were still trying to please everyone around me because I didn’t feel worthy of their love. That’s what happens when you try to bypass the good stuff.

What happened you might ask,? Well, it all came rearing its ugly head at me.. I had SO MANY people/issues/situations pulling at me or contacting me until I learned I needed to put my needs first and set the boundaries I had been putting off and pushing down. I learned I needed to make my connection to spirit a priority to be happy.  I had medical emergencies for my pets until I learned to ask for help and asking for help wasn’t a weakness after all. It takes a lot of humility to ask a friend or stranger for money. That is such a taboo where I come from.

I saw where my issues came from and learned to go back and see from other people’s perspectives and learned everyone is just seeking love (spirit is love) in their own way. I saw everyone in my life as a mirror of me. I saw whatever I refused to deal with was being passed on to my kids to have to handle and as a momma bear, that wasn’t ok with me!  If there is something about people in my life that bothers me, it is a piece of me that I have yet to accept and heal or find the golden nugget in. If I like something about someone it is because that lives inside of me too. As you work on yourself your world changes like magic! When you learn to see the dark and the light as it is, all energy you can learn to shift, transmute, and play with the energy instead of being ruled by it. As Louise Hay once said, “If you change the way you view the world, the world you view will change.” Boy is that true!

I am learning to be no longer afraid of the dark. Not only the dark outside but inside my physical space that my body takes up, but those dark parts my spirit tries to hide from. The parts of me I am ashamed of,.  embarrassed by, afraid of, the parts of me that I no longer wish to carry along the path called life. I have been trying over and over to heal the broken parts of me forgetting the fact I am not broken at all. Come to find out, those parts of me I was trying to “heal” are some of the most juicy parts that make me whole.. Some of them are my battle wounds that I wear proudly. They not only got me here today, but they are the foundation I am now proudly rooted in because it is an honor. Once I saw all I had to do was love those parts everything fell into place. How can I expect someone to love me unconditionally if I don’t love myself that way? How can I expect someone else to love the parts of me I was trying to push away?

I remember the day my connection to spirit broke fractured and ripped apart. I needed to take the journey inside to find the pieces I dropped along the way like breadcrumbs left behind to navigate me back home. And I am so grateful I did. I had to shut out the world. Tune deep inside and now I will never be the same. And now, I feel I can drop the shame, the fear, and the guilt. And to finish with another great Carl Jung quote, “I am not what happened to me. I am what I chose to become.”

Spiritual Guidance for the New Moon and the start of the Eclipse season!

Spiritual Store for Misfits :) Grant application

I have been preparing my entire life for this! The time has come. I am seeking investors in this amazing project I can't wait to launch. If you are interested, feel free to reach out and we shall chat. 

This store is already something special. It will include work from local crafters, farmers, and artists. We will offer a large variety of metaphysical tools such as crystals, tarot/oracle card decks, incents, candles, honey, and Pure Vermont Maple Syrup. As well as tapestries, journals, candle holders, and so much more, but that is just the physical items! 

In addition to the items in our store, I am hoping to have a healing room. This room will be a space where I can do energy healing and offer in-person classes. I would love to hold group meditations and offer courses and workshops to both local friends as well as people online. 

I am so excited I can see it all coming into place. 

Let me know what you think....and of course, reach out if you are dying to be a part of this magical experience! It will be INCREDIBLE!!

Sending you so much love,

Katie 💜

P.S. Since I am not doing the original idea, I will need a new name...I was going to call it Stones and Stoners, but since I don't want to have any age restrictions, I decided now might not be the time for it, so blank slate on the name, but it needs to be catchy... Let me know what you come up with!! 💗

Let me introduce myself....

I have been dedicated to my healing journey for years, striving to enhance my intuitive abilities and seeking ways to serve others. It has become clear that sharing my story and revealing my true self is essential. While I have yet to encapsulate my experiences into a neat package fully, there are aspects of my journey that I feel compelled to share. I hope that by opening up, I can offer a deeper understanding of who I am and why my voice matters.

Personal Recovery Story: *****TRIGGER WARNING**** Trauma story.
Hello, I'm Katie, a country girl with a profound connection to the spirit world, hailing from the picturesque state of Vermont. Growing up in a small town where our high school shared a single hallway for grades 7-12, I always felt a unique bond with my surroundings. From a young age, I was acutely sensitive to the presence of spirits, a gift that both fascinated and frightened me. I vividly recall pleading for respite from these overwhelming energies, a plea born out of a desire to escape the intensity of my perceptions.

As I navigated through my teenage years and into adulthood, I grappled with these heightened sensitivities, seeking solace in numbing distractions such as drugs or relationships. It dawned on me that individuals battling addiction may be attempting to silence their own unhealed traumas, a realization that resonated deeply with my struggles with addiction.

Reflecting on my childhood, I recently underwent a profound revelation after completing a college course on childhood trauma and adverse experiences. Scoring a 9 out of 10 on the ACE scale, I came face to face with the lasting impact of my past. This test, designed to yield lower scores, shed light on the challenges I had endured and the resilience I had cultivated in response. As shown in class, people with scores of 4 or higher can see a decrease in life expectancy by 20 years. It made perfect sense to me why my relatives died in their late 60’s early 70’s. It became clear to me I was to fix this for the generations to come.

I experienced sexual abuse at the hands of a couple of people growing up. I never spoke of it again until I was in my thirties. By then it was ruining my life. At that time, I was in my full-blown addiction to painkillers trying so hard to be a functional parent. I was working full-time in our local hospital, raising three children under five, in an extremely toxic marriage. My husband had been through two open-heart surgeries within a year. I was taking care of him during his recovery allowing myself to be buried farther down into the depths of my shadow where I would try to ignore and numb. The whole situation was out of control in every sense. I was literally dying inside trying to keep my life together when it really needed to fall apart for me to rise from the ashes. Eventually, I did rise from the ashes, but it took a suicide attempt, a couple of hospital stays, a visit to rehab, tons of prayer, and continuously learning to listen to my intuition. Looking back now, I see how much help I had from the Divine. Hitting rock bottom was so necessary for me to fully understand and feel what power addiction can have on you. I never thought I would say this, but today, I am grateful for this experience.

I can't say I am completely healed, but I will say this, I am on the other side of it all, I am listening to my intuition, which has been nagging me to share my story and what I have found helpful along the way.

I started counseling for the first time at age 6 and continue to find it useful to this day. I love having someone, separate from family, to talk to about issues as they arise. However, the one thing I can absolutely without a doubt say has been a complete game changer in my life with the most positive impact on my healing journey, would be energy healing. I have even learned energetic tools to increase my intuition and learn to trust it again. I deeply believe energy healing is hands down the one technique that will positively change the world for anyone who practices it. When I say energy healing, I mean working with the energy (everything is energy) around and inside us to heal/clear, envision, and then live a life of Divinely guided purpose in full alignment with our soul mission. 

It is also a deep belief of mine that we are all here for a Divine reason. The entire time I went through my life challenges I had a deep knowing (without knowing where it came from) that I was going through this shit for a reason even if I couldn’t see it at the time. I now know I had to go through the traumatic experiences to better understand them, learn from them, heal from them, and then share what I learned with people going through it on their own. Together we get through it and are better people because of our experiences. And how blessed are we to live in such a time when we can go back, look at our experiences, see them for the lessons they were, and help our fellow traveler on their way through?  

We all have intuition and spiritual guidance available to us at all times. Everything that has happened to us in life, is for a reason. We are meant to live out our wildest dreams and by doing so we make this world a better place. I think we all have a deep feeling/knowing/vision of something we are not doing but are supposed to be doing, and I want to help pull that out of all of us.

My early connection to spirit helped me through my childhood challenges. It was me reaching out to regain that connection that saved my life. And it is now my passion to share the ways I have learned to bring magic into our mundane to live more aligned to our soul. I believe by doing so, we are changing the world to help make it a better place! We are lightworkers! We are here for a reason! It is time to wake up to our powerful brilliance, and I can't wait to help you shine yours brighter than ever before! 

Join me while we build a community for the misfits, the sensitive souls, the ones struggling in a world that seems so unfair. Let's turn struggle into striving. What if it was just perfect and everything happening to you is for a higher purpose? Let's discover together what that purpose is. And let's have fun doing it!

Thank you for staying till the end! I can’t wait to see what a difference we make together!

Blessings,

Katie