Today I cried. It was a beautiful release. A cleanse. A releasing of built-up emotions. Not just for me but for all our ancestors who were unable to sit and cry. For myself and all the people before me who were forced to stuff their tears away. For those who were justifiably too afraid to allow themselves to feel what they were truly, deeply feeling. For all who have ever shoved their emotions down to keep themselves safe from everyone around them. For that sweet little girl who hurt and was told, “Stop crying” or, “You’re too sensitive”, “too soft” or my favorite, “Stop being a Sally”. I cry and feel the pain and fear I’ve carried for far too long. At the same time, I feel gratitude. I see where it kept me safe. Even if only for a short period. I see how it kept our ancestors from being killed, whipped, beaten, or shackled, but they were still chained. They gave birth to children with wounds in their hearts unbelonging to them. It shaped the way they did things and today because of them we have this beautiful golden opportunity. A choice. A chance to pause. A chance of honor. A chance to feel. A chance to heal. We have a choice to do things a new way. Our way. We all carry the lessons of our ancestors as tools in our toolbox, to be taken out when their use is warranted.
Today I feel love for those who came before me even if I don’t know them in person. They live as the love in our hearts, shining the way, guiding us as we build a better tomorrow for the next generation.
I hear you; I feel you; I honor you all. And, I thank you! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
What emotions are coming up for you to release on this rainy day? I am holding space for you. I am learning there is so much magic and life to live on the other side of the shit we bury!
Sending you, my love!
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